When does it get easier?
My husband finished his chemo in November last year, and has been in remission for 12 months last weekend. He has his next 3 month check up on Monday. So far, everything is going well. His chemo was probably as gentle and effective as we could have hoped for. However, everyday life is still so hard.
Cancer is never far away from my thoughts, and added to this my husband has really bad job stress, which means he's not sleeping, and often moody and difficult to live with. I'm dreading the day he wonders why he bothered going through chemo, so he could be healthy enough to be completely miserable most of the time. We're no longer sleeping in the same room, as his insomnia was begining to make my life impossible. I literally can't remember the last time we 'were intimate' (not suprising, with all that's going on)and I'm wondering when things are going to get better. He went to a therapist for the first time on Thursday, to help him deal with his understandable anxiety and depression. However, she seemed completely ineffective- very 'airy fairy' (not his style at all) and I really wonder if that's going to help. I was so hopeful that therapy would make our lives easier, but it doesn't seem as if it will.
At the moment I feel quite despairing. The average length of remission time for people with follicular lymphoma is 17 months- he's already done 12 months, so the next (?however long?) is going to be quite nervewracking. Generally speaking, the approach taken for this cancer is 'watch and wait'- how do you live while you're doing that?