Waiting for emotions to catch up after surgery?
Hi, jules_68 here. Have just had post surgery check up and surgeon happy with my diagnosis and progress. I havent really cried or been upset. Apart from quick spurts of tears, nothing. It has only been 1 month from diagnosis to surgery and now 5 weeks post op. Ive seen my dad go through cancer and remember feelings of a jigsaw and missing pieces and now on the other side and understand where all the pieces fit. Basically i also feel that i dont have the right to complain because my cancer was contained and i do not need any treatment. Also i was born with abnormal kidney, yep cancer took the healthy one and egfr is now 35% and eventually i will be on dialysis....i do feel a little angry about this.... How do i explore my feelings and when will i know when im ready to go back to work? I really am clueless about it all....i know there is no right or wrong way to do this? I would like to know how you all have dealt with this??? Thanks for listening. Jules