When chocolate can't fix it!

Author: Mrs Elton | March 7th, 2010
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My husband has cancer, it is killing him and in the process killing our family.

It is a slow process, a cruel process, there is no part of our life that has remained the same since cancer entered it. Every day in some way, a little piece of the life we knew disappears.

Innocence has been lost, carefree attitudes have been replaced with worry, energy has been replaced with constant fatigue....and so it goes on.

The rollercoaster of emotions began a year ago, but in the last three months the turns have been coming sooner and the ups and downs are coming much faster with no opportunity to 'catch your breath' in between.

I don't know how we will survive whatever is in store for us in the next three months. Communication is negligible and when it comes it is usually snappy, aggressive and negative. Energy is at an all time low. Happy family we are not.

This is not the kind of memory I want for myself and our children.

And chocolate can't fix it.

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Re: When chocolate can't fix it!

Posted by larn75 - 22 Mar 2010 - 22:30

Hi Jill,
Just catching up on blogs after being away. Sending you a big Maxy cuddle coz thats all I can think of to do. My heart is with you
Alana xxx

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Re: When chocolate can't fix it!

Posted by justbreathe - 9 Mar 2010 - 06:12

Mrs. Elton: How are you doing today? I hope you are doing as well as is possible as you deal with what you have to deal with. I just wanted to check in, sal hello, and let you know someone is thinking of you and your family.

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Re: When chocolate can't fix it!

Posted by chris martin - 8 Mar 2010 - 21:26

Hi Mrs Elton. My heart goes out to you and your family. Here I am feeling so bad as my dad is dying but you are going through so much more. My grandkids are same age as your boys and I don't know how they would cope with your situation. My prayers are with you and your family. This C word is an awful thing to deal with. Take care of yourself and those precious boys. xoxo Chris

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Re: When chocolate can't fix it!

Posted by Mrs Elton - 8 Mar 2010 - 08:43

Hi just breathe,

Thanks, that's what I'll do, just breathe.

Take care, hope you have an ok day.

Regards,
Mrs Elton

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Re: When chocolate can't fix it!

Posted by justbreathe - 8 Mar 2010 - 07:47

Mrs. Elton: Your words are so honest, so brutal, so painful. I am sure this is when you just breathe to continue going ... because for some crazy reason you have to keep going. I probably shouldn't even post on this site because I do not have cancer. I have been out of work for thirteen months, and being out of work is no comparison to what you are enduring. But your words resonate with me because I feel many of the same things you express. But as bad as I may feel, it is nothing compared to what you and your family is dealing with. You have courage, your words have SO MUCH wisdom. I wish I could somehow make your pain and my pain go away. Just breathe, Mrs. Elton, just breathe.

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