NOT LOOKING NORMAL
It is now 15 months since my surgery and I had thought that I was learning to live with altered facial features. But,today and tonight I know that I have a long way to go. Some people have worse disfigurement and difficuties post- treatment than I do and say how grateful they are to be alive but I still wonder if I would have had any surgery if I'd known what I would look like afterwards.
It's particularly bad when I look at photos and see how my being in them has spoilt them. I take no comfort when people say it's not that bad or when my husband tells me I'm beautiful. I know they are trying to make me feel better. I think I will investigate whether plastic surgery can help . My big problem is a distorted eye . If this sounds like self pity, that is because it is just that.
I'm not like this all the time, but on and off .Tomorrow it may not seem as bad and the next day it may be even worse.
Apologies to anyone that is in a more critical situation but it is easier to say this here than to people close to me. They can get sick of it but you can ignore it if you choose.