I am so thankful simply to be still alive, but coping with the effects of surgery and radiotherapy is not easy. I am surprised that I have so much on-going pain in all areas: face/neck, arm/wrist/hand, thigh. I am also frustrated with my physical restrictions and fatigue. I want to do lots of things but need to rest after doing basic things like household chores.
I was originally concerned with facial disfigurement but that is the least of my concerns, allowing for the fact that my mouth no longer closes in the left corner, I need to drink with a straw, cover my mouth with a serviette when eating in company and can often dribble. Excessively dry mouth when sleeping is also a problem.
I have a strong faith in God and know I don't walk this path alone.